“Go, eat your bread with joy, and drink your wine with a merry heart, for God has already approved what you do.” Ecclesiastes 9:7 (ESV)
The electricity is out. Without the heat running, the house will get cold. What if the power does not come back on tonight? Will we have to go and stay somewhere else? And how are we going to do that since we have been isolating for the last nine months? Are we now going to risk getting COVID because the electricity is out? And just like that, I burst into laughter! These are the kind of thoughts that used to attack my mind when bad things happened. But things have changed.
I have trusted God for the chaos that has been happening in this world for the last nine months. Family and friends are getting sick with COVID one by one, and I am still trusting God for the outcome. Am I seriously going to freak out now because the electricity is out?
I then started thinking about the message in church this morning. The Pastor is taking us through the book of Ecclesiastes. Today I learned that we are allowed to live any way we want, but God wants us to live for Him. I thought about this as I laughed at the irony of everything, and I wondered in amazement at the joy I live in these days.
I know that I can do my own thing, and for most of my life, I did. As I sat in the dark, I realized that I did not have hope in anything when I was living life my way. I was always depressed and felt anxious most of the time. The reason for this was because I had no one to hope in except for myself. So, whenever things would fall apart, I had no one but myself to look for the strength and comfort that I needed. It is an immense sense of relief for me to know that God is in control, and I can look to Him for what I need trusting that He will not fail me.
I am not blissfully ignorant and think that all will be peachy just because I live God’s way. He has a plan to fulfill in this world, and there will be trouble because of it. Trusting in Him doesn’t mean we are not going to get caught up in the chaos. I also will not always immediately start laughing when something terrible happens. I may need to run to my closet and cry my fears out to God in prayer, and I do. But because I am doing this, relying on him and not myself, I have the joy to walk through the trials. God promises this joy when we obey His word.
In choosing to do things God’s way and not our way, we will have joy despite the chaos.